Its inevitabllity has existed since our beginning and yet, we fight against it with all our strength. We do it for friends, for love, for this ideal that we have something worthwhile to share with the world, but I have none of those. What happens when our wills are exhausted and we feel there's nowhere else to turn..? We turn to faith? To hope? It's these concepts we cling to out of fear and sorrow. but what happens when the fear dissipates? The sorrow lingers; it festers...Until it consumes everything.

Though we're born into this world full of life, there's only one thing we all must do, without exception. All purpose I had is gone. I'm a hack. No onewill ever truly love me. People just say what they think will cause them the least guilt at night. I have no more guilt, or purpose, or reason. I have no more apetite, or tears...Only sorrow. No one can love that. No one would want to...

I don't blame them. I don't blame you. Here I am, teetering on the brink of clarity and confusion, coomplimenting myself because no one else will. Feigning relevence when I'm really just a hack. Hating myself and knowing it's all my fault. You smile and agree, because it's true... Thank you. you're the one person I always needed. Don't blame yourself. We both know it's just me.

Yeah, so I've actually fallen in love with somebody. -_- What a Goldberg, huh? It's totally annoying and I don't wanna go into details. Just, the person I'm in love with totally doesn't love me back. To the point of lauginh at me when I told them how I felt. It was so embarrasing. ::LOL::

Anyway, if you guys fall in love, punch whoever it is in the gut until they love you, too. The end.

Yay! I've posted a new poem. I'm sure you were all rife with anticipation.

Anyway, I'me jsut really stoked about this new Kingdom Hearts game. I cna't wait for December 7. TTYL, everyone.

Sorry I haven't been on much lately. Things have been so hectic recently. I've been pulled in a million driections at once. -_- I actually had a poem to submit, but someone threw it away... Anyway, a lot's been going on, but I really don't have anyone to talk to about it. It sucks. Oh well. I'll get to as many of these entries as I can today.

1. WHAT TIME DO YOU GET UP?
Depends. I keep odd hours.

2. IF YOU COULD EAT LUNCH WITH ONE FAMOUS PERSON, WHO WOULD IT BE?
Yoshitaka Amano. He's a total punk and I think he'd be fun to hang out with.

3. GOLD OR SILVER?
Silver

4. WHAT WAS THE LAST FILM YOU SAW AT THE CINEMA?
Star Wars something-or-other, I'm sure...

5.WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW?
Either Monk, Inu-Yasha, the West Wing, or Fillmore. Not sure.

6. WHAT DO YOU HAVE FOR BREAKFAST?
I don't eat breakfast.

7. WHO WOULD YOU HATE TO BE STUCK IN A ROOM WITH?
George W. Bush

8. CAN YOU TOUCH YOUR NOSE WITH YOUR TONGUE?
No.

9. WHAT INSPIRES YOU
Music and silence.

10. WHAT IS YOUR MIDDLE NAME:
Kyung, I suppose.

11. BEACH, CITY, OR COUNTRY?
Beach

12. FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
Peppermint

13. BUTTER, PLAIN OR SALTED POPCORN?
Salt and Butter

14. FAVORITE COLOUR?
Yellow and Orange

15. FAVORITE CAR?
One that starts.

16. FAVORITE SANDWICH FILLING?
Turkey, lettuce, and tomato with (low-fat) zesty Itallian dressing.

17. WHAT CHARACTERISTIC DO YOU DESPISE?
Manipulative behavior

18. FAVORITE FLOWER?
Yellow roses and tiger lillies.

19. IF YOU HAD A BIG WIN IN THE LOTTERY, HOW LONG WOULD YOU WAIT TO TELL PEOPLE?
The 2 and a half seconds it would take to dial the phone...

20. FIZZY OR STILL WATER AS A DRINK?
Still

21. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR BATHROOM?
Which one..?

22. HOW MANY KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING?
2

23. WHERE WOULD YOU RETIRE TO?
A secluded beach.

24. CAN YOU JUGGLE?
No.

25. FAVORITE DAY OF THE WEEK?
Thursday

26. RED OR WHITE WINE?
I don't drink. Red wine's pretty, though.

27. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY?
Watched a movie. No one remembered.

29. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE ANIMAL?
Panther, housecat

30. FAVORITE ANIME?
Ranma 1/2

31. FAST FOOD OR HOME COOKED MEAL?
Fast food

32. WHAT ATTRACTS YOU TO OTHERS OF THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Their eyes... In one second, you can tell if they're right for you.

33. DO YOU BELIEVE IN UNICORNS?
I believe that all things are possible.

34. WHATS YOUR DRESS STYLE?
Cargos or carpenter jeans and a t-shirt.

35. SAY SOMETHING NICE ABOUT THE DEVIANT YOU COPIED THIS FROM:
She's a total cutie. ^_^

36. WHO DO YOU LEAST EXPECT WILL COPY THIS?
Anyone

37. PERSON YOU EXPECT WILL COPY THIS FIRST?
No one. I don't tihnk anyone comes here anymore.

I'm a bit bored and uninspired lately... I've been busy, but not in a productive way. Oh well. This, too, shall pass...